Wednesday, May 7, 2014

Don't Believe The Lie

       If you've ever read our story, or that of another family, and thought that it was amazing how God provided financially BUT just know that wouldn't be possible with your family, Don't Believe The Lie!  That was me.  I read more books on adoption than you could imagine, and each one was full of amazing stories of God's provision.....time and again I'd read how money practically grew on trees (God's way more creative than that actually) and families had the thousands of dollars needed to bring their precious children home.  And each time I'd think...yeah, but they must know some wealthy people!  Or....I know it happens, but I just don't see how that's possible for us.  And then there we were....faced with the decision to obey God's very clear calling to adopt, which meant we had no choice but to trust in His ability to provide....even for us.

     I'm reminded of a chapter in Romans that talks about people suppressing the their thinking became foolish and their hearts were darkened as they failed to glorify Him.  "For since the creation of the world God's invisible qualities - his eternal power and divine nature - have been clearly seen, being understood from what has been made, so that people are without excuse."  It goes on to say that they exchanged the truth about God for a lie.  And I this not what we were doing?  We knew the truth....we knew that God is all powerful....that He is capable of anything, but instead we were denying what we knew so plainly....what God had revealed time and again in our lives.  We were so ready to exchange the truth about God (that He will equip us to do His will as He sees fit) for a lie (that He wouldn't do it for much doubt and fear).

     It's certainly been easier this second time around to worry less about the financial aspect of adoption....but I have to say, after doing this so recently for Levi's, I did have some doubts about where it would come from.  But I knew, from firsthand experience, and from what I know to be true about our God, that it was futile to worry about it.  Here we are...once again....being able to witness and experience all of the amazing ways God is providing, and equipping us to complete this adoption.  Just a week or two ago, we learned that we had not received the matching grant we had applied for.  They did, however, offer us a $4,000 interest free loan for a year, as well as an opportunity to collect donations in a tax deductible manner (if you are interested, let us know and we will pass along the information).  We've been very hesitant to go the loan route and it was something we hadn't expected, but we are grateful for this opportunity.  I'd be lying to say I wasn't disappointed about the grant....or even more, wondering how God was going to figure this out now, since that was how I thought He may equip us.  Ha!  I still fall into that trap...figuring it all out on my own, how God should provide!  Since the grant fell through, God has blessed us with donations we had never anticipated, as well as part of our adoption tax credit arriving yesterday.  The amount we received from the credit was more than I had anticipated, and we had really hoped to be able to use it towards this adoption (since that's what it was raised for in the first place for Levi!), but had wondered if it would come in time (many families had delays with receiving theirs).  Our fundraising thermometer jumped thousands in just over a week.  God.Has.It.Covered.  And don't believe the lie that He couldn't, or wouldn't, do the same for you.  If you are feeling prompted to the truth and live it, it will be the most amazing thing you have ever done.   

***  The day following this post, we received word that we have been blessed  with a Sparrow Fund grant to cover the costs of having a doctor here review the medical records we receive for our girls while in country.  Such a HUGE blessing.  We received a grant from them with Levi as well, so they are again blessing our family and SO many others.